My hair has been falling out, and it is everywhere -- on my clothes, my cooking, the kids, and on the floor -- which means it is ~3 months postpartum.
In general, life has resumed to normalcy, like how things were before Elias. I rarely, if ever, feel sorrowful. Thank God for His kind grace. The pain from previous triggers of grief cuts only superficially.
I read somewhere that processing new triggers of grief is helpful for healing, as one grieves new parts of his/her loss...
As I clean up the hair each time, there is a twinge of sadness as I remember my baby I miss and love. But he is with Christ, and his earthly death is gain (Phil. 1:21).
I also remind myself each time that what I perceive as loss is not worth comparing to what I have gained through and in Christ Jesus, my Lord and Savior.
Paul proclaims in Ephesians 1:3-14: "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, even as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before Him. In love He predestined us for adoption to Himself as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of His will, to the praise of His glorious grace, with which He has blessed us in the Beloved. In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of His grace, which He lavished upon us, in all wisdom and insight making known to us the mystery of His will, according to His purpose, which He set forth in Christ as a plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in Him, things in heaven and things on earth.
In Him we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the purpose of Him who works all things according to the counsel of His will, so that we who were the first to hope in Christ might be to the praise of His glory. In Him you also, when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and believed in Him, were sealed with the promised Holy Spirit, who is the guarantee of our inheritance until we acquire possession of it, to the praise of His glory."
How utterly shattering and humbling. My eternity is purchased, my sins forgiven, my spiritual eyes opened, an inheritance gained through the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus.
What lovely truth God graciously reminds me multiple times each day. In Christ, we have gained all things. In Christ, we are untouchable.
Everything Is Mine In You
Christy Nockels
Everything is mine in You
Even when my heart is breaking
Everything is mine in You
Even when my hands are empty
Everything is mine in You
Oh, in You
Everything is mine in You
I can trust You with my longing
Everything is mine in You
Even when the road is lonely
Everything is mine in You
Oh, in You, Lord
'Cause You are, Master over all
And You say, You are my inheritance
And in You, I have everything I need
And You are, seated in the heavenlies
And You say, forever You're my hiding place
And in You, I have everything I need
Everything is mine in You
And I know my future's bright
Everything is mine in You
Past or present, death and life
Everything is mine in You
Oh, in You, Lord
Against all hope
Help me hope
Against all fear
Draw me near
I will draw near
I am drawing near to You, Lord